Final exam was finally finish..
There's something from the deep bottom,beneath the cardiac muscle of my heart is time to dig up and discuss about "it" now.I have been hiding "it" about two weeks and delaying "it" most of the time.Exam is easy to be used as excuse and not even mention about "it".Perhaps procrastinating is my nature instinct.YES,i'm a procrastinator,i will not put much attention or keep worried and stressing about something that's being delayed,somehow i may totally forget about it.I used to believe "boots will be straight when they comes to either end of a bridge"..(direct translated from cantonise)But today there's two people keep reminding me about ''it''.They are like asking over and over again,so how was ''it''?settle down?with ''it''?again ''it''?
So they finally makes the volcanoes erupted and i'll seriously think about this problem start from this moment.
But before I start,can anyone tell me what is LOVE?I’m not talking about what makes people fall in lust or some one night stand with the sloppy guy that you met.I am talking about the whole “That can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars over the fence, world series kind of love”!
Well,I don't really understand much about it and I really don't know what I want as for now.
Can you guys please guide me what to do?!?If there was a guy with "good quality" is wooing you,what should you do?Normally,people used to ask me ,do u love him?if u do,u shall accept him,if u don't better tell him as soon as possible.To me,I really do not know whether i really love him or not?!The feeling of love,i can't catch u!Actually my life is full of love in every single moment,I have my friends and my family..They are really really close to me.Obviously family is the closest ever,but my friends too.My friends are always be there with me whenever I met a problem,sometimes I may feel that they are really concern me so much till reaching the level of my couple partner.We used to call each other darling,honey,it doesn't matter whether girls or boys..We are still loving each other so much.
Recalled back the memory of my "LOVED" life,the romantic moment as well as some tough moment while me and my ex have been gone thru.Those romantic moment is really amazing,incredible that i will not forget and those moment will carve in my mind,it will stay there in my entire of life.There's also some tough moment arised which makes our heart broken into pieces so far as to partition of our relationship.Tears took away our laughter,Moody took away our optimism,sadness took away our hapiness,vexation took away our clear minded,such a century's tragedy!!!!EmMmm..actually i was over exaggerate,it was quite sad though.The main reasons brought out the ending of our relationship is MYSELF.Well,I'm a girl who like freedom,I don't like people control me like holding a remote control by switching watever channel you like.I like the way I'm,I used to be playful all the time.My mean of playful is not I'm a playgirl,It means the "Intended for amusement; light-hearted according to Oxford Dictionary.Understood?!! He is the one like to *kepo* and asking me not to be so close with this and that people.He don't like the way how i treat my friends,he don't like guys put their hand on my shoulder,he don't like me to go out/play with guys,he dun allowed me this and that.Somehow,I have to care about his feeling and try to listen to him,not to be too close with guys.But Up to a level,i really get annoyed and irritated.Finally it's comes a tragic ends that's we broken up.
So let's back to our topic!What do you think about me?!What do you think i should do?accept or reject!??
Well,The Feeling of LOVE to me now is such a MESS.Am I really love him?
If I dun want the same ending with my ex to be happen once again,i shall reject him.But whenever I saw him,I will remain silence,what was actually on mind will suddenly dissapear,left no shadow!I do not know what should i do?but just procastinate.Looking into his eyes,I didn't have the heart to turn down his request yet he will nvr disturb me during my exam time.I admit that he is a Great Man.He is trying to ask me out this few days and i was keep rejecting,I'm not free.I'm always be determine on something I want or do not want to do but this time why am i being so hesitate?!I can't even make a decision !Am i really fall into the love river,but i think before i drop into the river i have drown by such dilemma situation?!!
ARggggHHh..Sometimes,I may think that delaying is the best method to solve vexation!
Peeps out there,Can u tell me what to do?!
Mun Yee, you just need to asked your self, will your think of him when ever you go, what ever you are doing? will your mind start to think of him. e.g. want to go out with him or wan to see him......? do your have all this kind of feeling?? if this simple feeling that u don have it on him.... tat mean you are not in love with him... when ever a person really love a person, they will always think of each and other./... No need to make your self so complicated because of relationship!
From Kelvin Ng
love don't come just like that. in fact, it takes some time to really know whether you love someone or not. love is a really strong word. and is only used if you're really committed to the other person ie, your other half. well, that's my opinion la.
i understand about your past experience. i've been through the same thing. not all guys are like that. there are some who are really nice and protective and yet not over-protective.
anyway, what you can do now is just take some time to know him and see whether is he the one who will be spending your life with [if you are thinking about long-term relationship here la]. maybe you can ask him to slow down a bit. he may be a really good quality guy but love is something that is not meant to be rushed.
so yeah. that's all i've gotta say la. don't know whether it will be helpful or not. take care yeah. don't stressed up yourself about this. muaxx.